Author's Notes:
This is a little headcanon/imagine/scenario post I originally wrote on Tumblr but I wanted to share it here too. I hope you like it!
The Argument
Whilst you try your best to avoid arguing with the Captain of the Jolly Roger, sometimes it is unavoidable.
Arguments usually centre around his ongoing obsession with Peter Pan and your difference of opinions/moral code.
He absolutely hates arguing with you over such things (or anything, for that matter) but he does let his temper get the better of him during an argument.
Whilst he could never physically strike you, he would likely be very intimidating. If he's feeling exceptionally emotional, expect his hook to plunge into the wall behind you, with him cornering you.
He'd mainly use his hook to threaten you. Usually, his hook doesn't scare you but now? Yeah, you're pretty frightened.
Again, if he's feeling incredibly vulnerable during the argument, he'd probably resort to yelling and throwing things across the room. In his anger, he'd probably pick up something extremely valuable and throw it at the wall without thinking.
If he's feeling a bit malicious and not so hot-headed, he'd probably get very snarky and say things he doesn't mean. Expect threats that he would never carry out and general bitter comments.
In his anger, he takes digs at your flaws, your weaknesses, your intelligence, past mistakes etc.
You try your best to calm him down, but his anger escalates too quickly.
If any of the crew try and intervene, they get shot. They now know best to stay away from him when he's like this.
The argument usually ends with you storming away, usually in tears because of his violent outbursts and the stuff he says.
Making Up
Not long after you storm off in tears, James is already hating himself...again. He is once again alone because of his own actions/speech. He has pushed the one person he loves most away.
The words "old, alone and done for" ring in his head and his heart breaks.
He recalls all of the things he said and he weeps. He's just said some horrible things to the only person who he truly loves and who loves him back and understands him best. How could he have done this!? He even frightened you , the one person who wasn't afraid of him!
The one person who he swore to protect, love, cherish and make feel safe....is now fearful of him and has run off. He has failed as a gentleman but even more so as a lover.
He'd chastise himself for his ungentlemanly ways and for how he, once again, let his rage get the better of him.
Can't stand to look in the mirror. Not only because he'd see a crying mess of a man, but also because he'd see himself for what he truly believes himself to be: a monster.
If you've gone to shore to calm yourself down, you'd probably want to stay away from the Jolly Roger for the night, just to allow you both to calm the heck down.
He'd worry about you not returning and start having those dark thoughts again; had you finally come to your senses and left him? Have you realised the "truth" about him; that he is unlovable? Had you gone to side with Peter Pan?
When you have calmed down and feel good enough to return to the ship, James is waiting for you. He politely invites you into his quarters so you can talk without the crew listening.
The moment that door is shut, he breaks down completely.
His arms are tightly around you, his face buried in your hair as he sobs.
He is so apologetic and speaks like a gentleman whose heart is breaking. The man is an emotional mess.
He begs for your forgiveness. He is completely vulnerable again and wants you to know how sorry he is and how much you mean to him. He begs you not to leave him. You are his light, his love.
He didn't mean the things he said, he just let his anger get the better of him.
You know James. You know what he's like. You understand that he's trying his best and you do forgive him because he is the love of your life. You hold him tight and tell him everything is okay; you love him so much and you also apologise for the things you said.
He's already arranged a beautiful flower display for you. He got the flowers himself and it really touches your heart because you know flowers are his absolutely favourite thing.
Expect kisses all day. Expect a lavish dinner to be set up for just the two of you in his quarters. Expect him to dote on you and spoil you. I mean, he does do that already but now it's even more so.
He'd do just about anything to make you smile. A N Y T H I N G.
That fancy treasure he found the other day? It's yours now. That beautiful jewellery you saw the other day? Guess what. He's already bought it for you (or stole it because...y'know...pirate.)
The best part about the making-up process is the vulnerability and the tenderness he shows you when you both go to bed that night. He's cuddled up close to you, listening to your every word as you run your fingers through his curls. You talk calmly and you remind him of all of the reasons you love him and why he ISN'T a monster to you. You remind him of your loyalty to him and the future you both want together.
He still doesn't understand what he did to deserve such a wonderful person as his lover, but he's forever grateful.
He vows to try better next time and not get so hot-headed.
Thankfully, your arguments are few and far between.
